人格的淨化
內在分離的自我
我們的存在有許多的方面，所以有許多面，和許多的面孔。每個面都是一個不同的我。我們有憤怒的我、悲傷的我、嫉妒的我、慈愛的我、溫柔的我、關懷的我。我們有情緒的我、感覺的我、心智的我。我們有人性的我、靈性的我。我們有意識的我、潛意識的我、無意識的我。從一個角度來看，它們都是自己的不同方面。從另一個角度來看，當它們沒有和諧的互相連結時，它們是分離的自我。
人們一直與自己抗爭。自我的不同面向想要不同的東西。困惑、猶豫、懷疑、遲疑都是自我的一些方面，沒有與其他方面一致的例子。當這樣的分裂是溫和的時，我們會經驗到內在的衝突。當它變得更加強大時，我們就會經驗到內在的破碎。當它非常強大時，我們可能就會經驗到多種人格障礙，甚至是精神分裂症。我們內在越分裂，就有越多我們各種的面向採取自己的身份，因此在我們的存在中，創造出幾個不同的自我。關鍵是幫助我們的各方面整合，讓我們成為與我們最高利益一致的整合的整體。
對於重新統一的內在臣服的層次
一個人可以覺醒，但仍然展現他性格中不純淨的面向。簡單的說，這種情況的發生是在我們較低的自我沒有為我們較高的自我服務時。當我們的自我沒有服務於我們的靈魂；當我們的頭腦沒有服務於我們的心。這內在的工作不是擺脫我們自己的某些方面，因為我們需要所有的面向；而是創造出內在臣服的正確層次。最終，我們需要服務於真理、愛和內在的光。當較低的傾向浮現時，我們需要使它們臣服，使它們成為我們靈魂純淨的內在更高意圖。
過去回歸的意識線
人格淨化不僅是一種心智的練習。一個人需要在意識的各層面經過深層的情緒療癒，才能真正的淨化。我們較低的傾向不是偶然的，或者只是身為人類的一部分。我們的傾向反映了我們意識的發展階段。每個人在不同的演化層面體現，需要不同量的學習和努力，克服其較低的傾向。我們較低傾向的拉力，它們的力量和重力是因人而異的。
例如，有些人無法釋懷過去，或接受任何形式的損失。親人的過世使他們在無望的放縱和痛苦中受苦多年。而對於其他人，也許是他們的兄弟姐妹，對於同樣的親人具有一樣多的愛，卻可以放下，祝福離去的人，以更輕鬆的方式前進。不是發生的事情決定了我們的反應；而是我們發展的成熟的深度決定了我們的反應。
雖然我們從前世遺留負面和較低的傾向，我們也遺留了自己正面和較高的方面。當我們開始覺醒時，就會進入一個稱為「迅速憶起過往（recapitulation）」的過程中，我們迅速的回想起所有我們曾經知道的一切。我們不會記得世俗的事情，像是故事、地點、人物、名字和日期；相反的，我們會回憶起智慧、知曉、成熟、技能、天資和我們過去的才能。一個年輕的孩子在難以理解的年紀，如三、四歲時，就能巧妙的學會彈鋼琴或歌唱，就是經歷再現的例子。他們回想起深刻的知曉，從過去的意識中汲取出，並從它們離開的地方繼續進行。我們從過去遺留的負面性要被化解，而正面性要被發展。
人格的淨化
未化解的傷痛是我們負面性的來源，以及我們的人格變得陰鬱，容易有較低傾向的原因。為了使我們從較低本性的拉力釋放，我們需要經歷深刻的療癒和淨化。除非我們療癒了傷痛，我們會保持與自己的負面性認同，而它會持續佔據我們的人格。
我們必須瞭解到傷痛是強大的實體，它沒有什麼耐心。它已經到了頂點，並告訴我們某些東西是非常失衡的，現在需要被修正。傷痛不僅是生命中一個隨機的部分;它是一個信號，一個訊息。當傷痛沒有得到化解時，就會自動影響我們的整個系統和在世界上的表達。我們開始變得負面，有負面的思想，說負面的話，表達負面的情緒，並想採取負面、有傷害性的行動。傷痛想要被看見，它試圖尋找各種的方式，從我們的存在清除。如果我們是無意識的，我們就會成為一個負面的人，並認為這就是我們的個性。而如果我們是有意識的，就會看到傷痛不斷透過越來越明顯的方式展現，來從我們的系統淨化。我們需要覺醒，注意，並開始清除傷痛。
有許多了解這一點的方法，但覺知是對於任何改變的第一步。我們需要深深的探索每個傷痛和產生傷痛的較低傾向。我們需要有意識的經驗每個傷痛如何試圖幫助我們感受和學習。每個傷痛都有自己獨特的旅程。透過與痛苦的生命完全的合一，我們就會將它完成。例如，要憤怒找到回到和平的途徑，它必須被充分、真實和完整的感受。它必須燃燒到頂點，然後燒毀。它可能須要透過譴責、批判、失控和絕望，來繞一圈，但最後它充分的表達應該帶來化解，產生自然的了解、寬容，對他人的接納，以及回歸到愛。這是憤怒的旅程。每個傷痛、每個負面情緒、模式或傾向都必須完成它自己的獨特旅程。
當我們開始進行內在的工作時，我們會意識到這是非常複雜、多維度、多層次的工作。因此，許多獨立又相互連結的過程同時進行著。我們必須最終輕敲最令人不安、痛苦、和不正常的傾向，並幫助它們完整。在我們重大問題的處理之後，是我們小問題的微調和微妙的淨化。所有的過程都必須被帶進有意識的覺知中，無論它們開始時是多麼的潛伏或深藏於我們的無意識中。當我們處理自己存在中每個不和諧的線，而且圍繞它的痛苦都化解時，我們就會開始從負面性的重量中得到解脫。當我們療癒與淨化自己時，我們對於較低反應的傾向就會開始減弱。我們自然就會靠向自己的正面本性。
人格的淨化將我們的存在中分離不和諧的線帶進它們個別的療癒，和最後整體的交織調準。我們曾經與彼此衝突的分離自我，現在終於來到了和平。當我們同意療癒自己的存在在傷痛中的每個部分，並淨化所有存在的負面性時，我們就會再次成為一個統一的整體。從前世遺留的較低傾向解脫，並再現前世的修養，標誌著當前演化線的結束，和一個新的開始。
~ Avalon
Purification of Personality
Separate Selves Within
We have so many facets to our being, so many sides and so many faces. Each face is a different me. We have an angry me, a sad me, a jealous me, a loving me, a tender me, a caring me. We have an emotional me, a feeling me, a mental me. We have a human me, a spiritual me. We have a conscious me, subconscious me, unconscious me. From one perspective, they are different aspects of one self. From another, they are separate selves when they are not harmoniously interconnected.
People fight with themselves all the time. Different sides of the self want different things. Confusion, indecision, doubt, hesitation are examples of how some aspects of self not aligned with other aspects. When this division is mild, we experience inner conflict. When it grows stronger, we experience inner fragmentation. When it is very strong, we may experience multiple personality disorder or even schizophrenia. The more polarized we are within, the more our various aspects take on their own identity, hence creating several different selves within our one being. The key is to help all our aspects harmonize so we become an integrated whole that is aligned with our highest good.
Hierarchy of Inner Surrender
One can be awakened but still display impure aspects in their personality. Simply put, this happens when the lower self is not serving our higher self, when our ego is not serving our soul, when our mind is not serving our heart. The inner work is not to get rid of certain sides of ourselves, as we need all aspects; it is to rather create the correct hierarchy of surrender within. Ultimately, we need to serve truth, love and the light within. When lower tendencies emerge, we need to surrender them so they become purified inside the higher intent of our soul.
Threads of the Past
Purification of personality is more than just a mental exercise. One needs to undergo deep emotional healing in the various layers of consciousness to truly purify. Our lower tendencies are not accidental, or simply just a part of being human. Our tendencies reflect the developmental stage of our consciousness. Every person incarnates at a different evolutionary level and requires a different amount of learning and effort to overcome their lower tendencies. The pull of our lower tendencies, their strength and gravity vary from person to person.
For example, some cannot let go of the past, or take any form of loss. The death of a loved one will make them suffer in hopeless abandon and bitterness for years. For others, perhaps their sibling, who has experienced the same amount of love for that same beloved, can let go, bless the departed and move on with more ease. It is not what happens that determines our reactions; it is our depth of evolutionary maturity that does.
While we carry over negative and lower tendencies from past lives, we also carry over our positive and higher aspects. When we start to awaken, we enter a process called recapitulation in which we quickly begin to recall all that we once knew. We do not recall the mundane, like stories, places, people, names and dates; rather, we recall the wisdom, knowingness, maturity, skills, talents, and aptitudes of our past. A young child who masterfully learns to play the piano or to sing by an inexplicably young age, like 3 or 4 is an example of having undergone recapitulation. They are recalling a deep knowing, drawing it out of the consciousness of the past and continuing from where they left off. The negative we carry over from our past is meant to be dissolved, the positive is meant to be developed.
Purification of Personality
Unresolved pain is the source of our negativity and the reason why our personality has been darkened and become prone to lower tendencies. In order to release ourselves from the pull of our lower nature, we need to undergo deep healing and purification. Unless we heal pain, we stay identified with our negativity and it continues to keep a stronghold on our personality.
We must realize that pain is a powerful entity with little patience. It has come to a point of culmination and is telling us something is highly out of balance, and it needs to be corrected now. Pain is not just a random part of life; it is a signal, a message. When pain is unresolved, it automatically affects our whole system and expression in the world. We begin to become negative, have negative thoughts, say negative words, express negative emotion, and want to take negative, hurtful actions. Pain wants witnesses. It tries to find various ways to purge itself from our being. If we are unconscious, we just become a negative person and think that is our personality. If we are conscious, we see pain is continuously trying to cleanse itself from our system by showing up in more and more obvious ways. We need to awaken, take note, and begin to clear the pain.
There are many ways to go about this, but awareness is the first step towards any change. We need to deeply inquire into every pain and lower tendency that has been born from it. We need to consciously experience what each pain is trying to help us feel and learn. Each pain has its own unique journey. Through complete unity with the life of that pain, we bring it to completion. For example, for anger to find its way back to peace, it must be felt fully, truly and completely. It must flare to a peak and then burn out. It may need to loop through blame, judgment, loss of control and hopelessness, but finally its full expression should bring dissolution, yielding a natural understanding, forgiveness, embrace of the other and a return to love. This is the journey of anger. Each pain, each negative emotion, pattern or tendency must complete its unique journey to completion.
When we start to do the inner work, we realize it is a very complex, multi-dimensional and multi-layered work. So many separate yet interconnected processes are all going on simultaneously. We must eventually tap into the most disturbing, painful and dysfunctional tendencies and help them come to completion. Following the processing of our major issues is then the more fine tuned and subtle clearing of our minor issues. All processes need to be brought into conscious awareness, no matter how dormant or deeply wedged in our unconscious they are to begin with. As we work through every discordant thread in our being, and the pain around it dissolves, we begin to get free from the gravity of negativity. As our tendency towards lower responses begins to wane as we heal and purify ourselves, we naturally lean back into our positive nature.
The purification of personality brings the separate discordant threads of our being back into their own individual healing, and final overall alignment. Our separate selves once in a battle with each other can now finally come to peace. We become a unified whole again when we agree to heal every part of our being in pain, and clear all negativity present. Liberation from lower tendencies carried over from our past, and the recapitulation of our past life cultivations, marks the end of one evolutionary phase and the beginning of a new one.
~ Avalon