I had previously attended the 7-Day Healing Retreat, where I experienced significant release and gained many valuable insights into my life. Although I had already changed a great deal, there were still challenges within my family. At first, I hoped that my family members would also attend the course. But then a thought arose in me: if I could break through even further and truly live a transformed life, perhaps that would better encourage my children to experience the healing course for themselves. So this time, I explored my inner world more deeply. Whenever I reached a difficult point, I would pray for God to help me go deeper and tell myself, “I am ready. I can do this.” With the support of Avalon and the healing angels, I experienced a major breakthrough. Through this course, I was able to bring healing and completion to my relationship with my father. I also found the courage to fully open my wounded heart and allow love to flow again. This felt very different from the instability I had experienced in the past. I also stopped rejecting my emotions. I no longer believe there is such a thing as an “inappropriate” emotion. I learned to face them honestly, experience them, move through them, and grow from them. I realized that in the past, because I did not want to hurt others, I often held back what I wanted to say and could not express my true self. When I was trapped in my own pain, I was also unable to truly support the people around me. I decided to break this cycle, to stay centered, express my true feelings with love, and stop allowing myself to remain trapped in my wounds. Now, when challenges arise in daily life, I am no longer carried away by my emotions in the same way. I remind myself to stay focused and awake rather than projecting outward, and I can meet what happens with much more calmness. I have also regained my strength.

I chose this course because I wanted to discover the truth of who I am. But I did not expect the path to be so difficult. On the very first day, I encountered a challenge. I had become so accustomed to operating through my mind that I no longer knew how to feel my emotions—or perhaps more truthfully, I was afraid to feel what I was really feeling. I wanted to appear mature, sensible, and not trouble anyone, so suppressing my emotions gradually became a habit without me even realizing it. When other students were able to connect with their feelings quickly, I felt nothing at all, and that made me even more anxious. Fortunately, Avalon’s healing team was there to support me and give me the courage to keep moving forward, one step at a time. The course brought me several important breakthroughs. The first was that I began to stop running away from my emotions. When emotions arise, I now try to acknowledge them and feel them. I do not always do this perfectly, but I no longer push them away immediately. Another breakthrough came during the “Realizing Love” process. I saw how I had developed a habit of placing subjective labels on strangers, and most of those labels were negative. I realized that perhaps I was so afraid of being hurt that I would build a wall first. The course helped me see that this habit was not only unfair to others, it was also keeping me closed off and causing me to miss many opportunities to love and be loved. Since then, I have been reminding myself to practice opening up, to first try to see the good in others, and to allow light and love to enter my own heart. After the seven-day course, I understood that this was only the beginning of my practice. Now I try to make time each day to become still, spend less time on my phone, and bring my attention back to myself. Sometimes I also pray to the God within my heart. Little by little, I feel that my heart is no longer as empty as it once was.

As the second child, I didn’t feel valued or loved by my family. This led me to prioritize others over myself — constantly giving what I thought was best, without realizing it wasn’t what they truly needed. After entering the workforce, my health gradually declined. Learning I had an 80% chance of developing leukemia was a shock. These physical conditions led to a vicious cycle of body and mind, until I asked myself: “Why do I exist? If I didn’t exist, things would be better…” — leading to thoughts of giving up on life. During the seven-day course, I truly experienced how any negative emotion can hide and be suppressed in every cell of the body, gradually distancing us from love and God. I am grateful to Avalon for guiding me into the depths of each negative consciousness, allowing love and light to flow back in, enabling me to transform and be reborn, and to begin to protect and care for myself. This journey of encountering my true self is a starting point, not an end. Namaste.

Each day of those seven days was a shedding of a layer of skin, a daily transformation. I saw my former self, suppressed by the expectations of others; breaking free, my hidden self was awakened. Avalon guided my divinity to unfold throughout my body, eventually growing magnificent wings. The lively, cheerful personality of my childhood has returned. On the first day after the workshop, my girlfriend noticed I could use a wider vocabulary to express my thoughts. Now, my relationships with friends, work, partner, siblings, and teachers have all changed significantly. I will move forward with the blessings of the universe, on the path of purification and evolution.

During the first two days, I experienced a deep rebellious streak — a strong resistance that prevented me from entering the process. As love was gradually added, the hardness began to melt, and I realized the resistance contained pain. I saw that I am a very giving person, but I don’t readily accept love from others. Through continuous release and healing, I discovered I can truly receive love now. I thank God for guiding me to meet Avalon — she has become a role model for me. Once I took care of myself inside, everything became much easier — including abundance arriving in my life in ways that surprised me.

Before coming here, my biggest problems were: resistance to men, a longing for fulfilling love, fear of investing emotionally, and an inability to love. Now, my heart is filled with love, and I can gently and intimately connect with others. Before, I felt disgusted by people who smoked or drank. Now I know that what I see isn’t necessarily the truth — it’s their life experience. I understand that true love doesn’t hurt; it’s unconditional compassion. The divine covenant has taught me that all the most significant wounds in my life were invited by myself. Being with God, God dwells in my heart, allowing me to feel filled with happiness and being received.

I want to thank all my classmates for their support during these three days, and for all the blessings for me and my seven-month-old baby. On the morning of the third day, after the most intense inner circle process, I realized that it was I who had been pushing myself and those around me away. After releasing all that negative energy, an overwhelming love flooded in — I understood that the happiness I always possessed was right there; I had just pushed it away. After class, I saw my husband waiting outside with the car — the scene was exactly what I had envisioned at noon — but the feeling of our embrace was completely different. I sincerely thank God for His grace and remember my promise: to not complain anymore. Thank you, Avalon.

For a long time, I have known that I have some issues with emotional management. I tend to care deeply about others’ judgments of me, especially the judgments of my closest family members. If those judgments escalate, my anger escalates as well, leading to confrontational words and actions. Out of a desire not to attack my family, I often try to suppress this anger and aggression, but once I reach a breaking point, I lose control and begin to lash out, both at others and at myself. After these outbursts, I feel extreme guilt, especially when I see my family members hurt by my violence. I fall into a state of collapse, much like the flooding of the Nile River—there is a pattern to it, but I feel powerless to change it. Life is full of miracles. With my family’s encouragement, I entered Avalon’s classroom, where I immediately tapped into the violent emotions I had been suppressing and was unwilling to express. I was completely ignited, like a massive explosive warehouse set ablaze. I released the anger I had kept bottled up inside until I was physically exhausted, fully experiencing the emotions I usually avoid: sadness, anger, despair, grievance, and regret. With the eye mask on and the perfectly fitting, deeply moving music, I became fully integrated with these emotions. Over three days, I cried tears I had held for many years and shouted out the anger I had repressed for so long. Strangely, the release of these negative emotions did not intensify them; instead, they began to dissolve, and a sudden wave of compassion for myself and my family arose.

This three-day advanced course healed the relationships of three generations for me. The most significant was my relationship with my adoptive mother. From as far back as I can remember, I had a strong aversion to her — she frequently used coarse language to curse at me, wished death upon me, and was extremely stingy. I never felt a moment of love from her. When asked who I hated most in this world, I would say without hesitation: “My mother!” Even though she passed away 11 years ago, the harm still feels fresh. During the course, I realized I had only ever viewed her from one angle. At 47, she had never been a mother before, yet bravely took on raising me as a one-year-old. By age four, I was cooking lunch with firewood and walking to school alone; by eight, I was buying groceries and cooking dinner. I realized these experiences were lessons I needed to learn. Without her raising me, without the trials of my childhood, I wouldn’t have the strong will I have today, nor my happy family. I deeply regret not treating her with the mindset of a biological daughter. I kept saying sorry to my mother, and eventually asked for her spirit’s forgiveness. I am grateful for everything that has happened.