一場超越多年療癒的深層轉變
我已經走在內在療癒的道路上超過十年。在最近一次為期21天的閉關中，我經歷了一種非常高頻、非常光明的意識狀態。但當我回到日常生活後，我注意到——即使經歷了這樣高層次的狀態，現實生活中的挑戰，依然會帶出內在的緊張。當我的事業出現不穩定的時候，我仍然會感到焦慮與不安；有時候也會有恐懼，對未知的恐懼，甚至是對他人評價、嫉妒、攻擊的恐懼，尤其是因為我經營的是網路事業。即使我可以進入更高的覺知狀態，仍然會被拉回「自我感」之中。
另一個我長期面對的問題，是睡眠。很多年來，我一直依賴安眠藥，沒有藥物幾乎無法入睡。當我更深入去看失眠的根源時，我開始理解，這來自於很久以前形成的內在模式。我是在家工作，而我成長的家庭環境相對嚴格、控制感比較重；我常常沒有辦法真正放鬆、自在，需要壓抑自己的某些情緒，沒有辦法完全做自己。當我有獨處的時候，內在就會有一股很強烈的衝動，想要把所有被壓抑的東西釋放出來。過去，這種釋放常常會透過性的能量表現出來，作為一種快速排解情緒的方式；久而久之，這個模式變得有點上癮——只要有壓力或情緒堆積，哪怕是一點點的縫隙，都會觸發這樣的衝動。但同時，因為我已經走在靈性修行的道路上很多年，我又會試圖壓抑這些衝動，告訴自己不應該偏離修行。這在內在形成了一個很深的衝突——慾望與控制、表達與壓抑之間的拉扯；久而久之，這種壓抑、自我批判與內在矛盾，開始轉化為失眠。我會習慣熬夜，因為夜晚讓我覺得那是唯一真正屬於我自己的時間，是我唯一能感覺到隱私與自由的時刻，因此很難放下，進入睡眠。
更深一層，我也看見自己長期存在一種對健康與生存的恐懼。多年來，我有慢性的身體症狀，包括長期的蕁麻疹，以及像是免疫系統失衡的狀態；曾長時間每天服用中藥，每週看醫生。在這些表象之下，有一個持續存在的恐懼——一種對生命本身的不安全感。我害怕罹患重病，害怕痛苦，害怕失去一切——健康、家人、愛，以及被重視的感覺。這種底層的恐懼影響了我生活的很多面向。因為我經營網路事業，我變得對他人的看法非常敏感——很在意網路上的人怎麼看我，也很在意父母、太太、朋友怎麼評價我。內在一直有一種壓力，要足夠好、要被認可、要被肯定；更深的地方，好像只要我不夠好、不夠完美，就不會被愛。這讓我長期處在一種緊繃的狀態——焦慮、壓抑與內在壓力交織，一直在背景中存在；有時候甚至強烈到，我需要靠藥物讓神經系統冷靜下來。
這些年來，我嘗試過很多不同的療癒方法。雖然有些方法可以幫助我處理某些情緒或調整想法，但我慢慢發現，它們並沒有真正觸及根源。當下我會感覺比較好——比較輕鬆、釋放，甚至像是被療癒了；但過幾天、幾週，或當生活情境再次出現時，這些負面情緒與模式又會回來。這變成一個循環——療癒、復發、處理、再重複，不管我多努力，都像是在原地打轉。那時候我知道，我需要更深層的幫助。
我聯繫了Avalon，詢問是否能進行一對一的合作，幫助我超越表層療癒，真正從根本轉化這些模式。她答應了。
在個案過程中，Avalon引導我進入非常深的潛意識層面，甚至是更深的無意識。她能讀取我能量中的模式、情緒，以及這些年不斷重複的循環。當她把這些情緒模式說出來並回饋給我時，我同時被引導往內，真實地去感受它們。在她的支持下，我進入了以前從未觸及的情緒層次，即使我已經做了多年內在工作。這次最大的不同，是深度——不再只是碰到表面就離開，而是被引導進入最深處，完整地感受每一個情緒，停留在不舒服裡，並真正走完它。一個一個模式與情緒，不只是被看見，而是被完整地經歷與消化。
就在那個過程中，一件很深的事情發生了——我不只是釋放情緒，我開始真正理解它。我清楚看見這些模式為什麼存在，我要從中學到什麼，以及它們如何形塑我的人生。所以這個轉變，不只是情緒與能量層面，同時也是意識層面的轉化。Avalon也引導我看見一些前世的片段，理解為什麼我會出生在這樣的家庭，為什麼帶著這些模式，以及這些循環如何形成。更重要的是，我被引導看見如何超越它們——如何真正釋放、和內在和解，從根本打破這些重複的模式。整個經驗，是我過去從未接觸過的。
在個案之後，我的改變非常明顯。最大的轉變，是我對健康的關係。原本那種持續的焦慮、恐懼、對重病的負面想像，完全消失了，取而代之的是一種對身體深深的信任。我真的能感覺到，身體正在回到健康的狀態，也不再有那種會失去生命的恐懼。原本一直存在的背景緊繃——焦慮、不安、神經緊繃——完全鬆開了，我不再需要依賴藥物來讓自己平靜。
在工作上，也有很大的轉變。過去對金錢、表現、失去的焦慮，轉變成一種感恩的狀態，不管事業好或不好，我都能保持平穩與安定。我自然地對生活中的一切產生感謝——團隊、家人、客戶，以及所有經驗。長期的失眠也開始改善，我逐漸不再依賴安眠藥。最重要的是，我內在出現了一種很深的輕鬆與平靜。當那些深層被壓抑的情緒被釋放後，我不再需要透過上癮性的方式來調節，包括用性來釋放情緒。
我真心覺得，Avalon的一對一個案對每個人都有價值。即使我已經做了十多年的內在工作，我仍然有盲點，有看不清的地方。透過她的引導，我第一次真正看見並走過這些更深的層次。這不只是「看見」，而是「完成」——完整感受、完整理解，並真正轉化。我接觸過很多老師與方法，但從未遇過這麼全面、這麼深入的轉化方式。如果你只是想讓生活更輕鬆、更平靜，這個工作本身就已經很有價值；而如果你在走更深的靈性道路，想要真正的覺醒與解脫，那這樣的一對一工作幾乎是必要的。因為當覺知擴展，如果沒有處理內在的人性與情緒層面，很容易再次掉回舊的模式；而這樣的工作，能讓你的內在基礎，與更高的覺知真正穩定對齊。
— Alex Lin 夢行者水晶有限公司 CEO
A Deep Transformation Beyond Years of Healing Work
I have been on an inner healing journey for more than ten years. During a recent 21-day retreat, I experienced a very high and luminous state of consciousness — but when I returned to daily life, I noticed that even from such elevated states, real-life challenges still brought up inner tension. When my business felt unstable, anxiety would surface; there was fear of uncertainty, of being judged, envied, or attacked, especially because I run an online business. Despite accessing higher awareness, I could still be pulled back into the sense of self.
Another long-standing challenge was sleep. For many years I relied on sleeping medication, and without it I couldn’t fall asleep at all. Looking deeper, I traced this to old patterns. Growing up, my family environment was strict and controlled, and I couldn’t fully be myself — parts of my emotions had to be held back. Because of this, whenever I was alone there was a strong urge to release everything suppressed. This often expressed itself through sexual energy as a way to discharge emotions quickly, and over time it became somewhat addictive. At the same time, having walked a spiritual path for years, I tried to suppress these impulses — creating a deep inner conflict between desire and control, expression and suppression, that eventually manifested as insomnia. I also stayed up late because nighttime felt like the only space that truly belonged to me. Beneath this lived a persistent fear around health and survival. For years I had chronic physical symptoms — long-term urticaria, an imbalanced immune system — taking traditional medicine daily and seeing doctors weekly. Underneath was a deep insecurity about life itself: fear of serious illness, of suffering, of losing everything — health, family, love, the sense of being valued. Because I run an online business, I also became highly sensitive to how others perceived me — online, my parents, my wife, my friends. There was constant pressure to be good enough; deeper still, it felt as though if I wasn’t perfect enough, I wouldn’t be loved. This produced a long-term state of tension — anxiety, suppression, and inner pressure always present in the background, sometimes intense enough that I needed medication to calm my nervous system.
Over the years I explored many healing modalities. Some helped me process emotions or shift my mindset, but I gradually realized none addressed the root. In the moment I would feel lighter, even healed — but after a few days or weeks, the same patterns would return. It became a cycle: heal, relapse, process, repeat. No matter how hard I tried, I was running in place. That was when I knew I needed deeper help.
I reached out to Avalon and asked if we could work one-on-one — to help me move beyond surface healing and transform these patterns at the root. She agreed.
In our sessions, Avalon guided me into very deep layers of the subconscious, and even into the unconscious. She could read the patterns, emotions, and recurring cycles in my energy, and as she reflected them back to me, I was simultaneously guided inward to feel them as they truly were. With her support, I entered emotional layers I had never reached before, even after years of inner work. The biggest difference was depth — we didn’t stop at the surface. I was guided all the way down, to fully feel each emotion, stay inside the discomfort, and walk it through to completion. One pattern at a time, not just seen but fully experienced and digested.
Within that process, something deeper happened: I was not only releasing emotions, I was beginning to truly understand them. I could clearly see why these patterns existed, what they were here to teach me, and how they had shaped my life. So the transformation was not only emotional and energetic — it was a shift in consciousness. Avalon also guided me to see fragments of past lives, helping me understand why I was born into the family I was, why I carried these patterns, and how the cycles had formed. Most importantly, she showed me how to transcend them — how to truly release, reconcile within, and break these repeating patterns from the root. The whole experience was unlike anything I had encountered before.
After our work, the changes have been profound. The most significant shift is in my relationship with health. The constant anxiety, the fear, the dark imagination around serious illness — all of it is gone. In its place is a deep trust in my body. I can genuinely feel my body returning to health, and the fear that I might lose my life has lifted. The background tension I had carried for years — anxiety, unease, nervous tightness — has fully softened. I no longer need medication to calm my system.
There has also been a major shift in my work. The anxiety I used to carry around money, performance, and loss has transformed into gratitude. Whether business is going well or not, I’m able to stay steady and grounded. I now feel a natural appreciation for everything in my life — my team, my family, my clients, every experience. My long-term insomnia has begun to ease, and I am gradually no longer dependent on sleeping pills. Most importantly, a deep ease and peace has emerged within me. With those deeply suppressed emotions released, I no longer need to regulate myself through addictive patterns, including using sexual energy to release emotion.
I genuinely believe Avalon’s one-on-one work has value for everyone. Even after more than ten years of inner work, I still had blind spots and places I couldn’t see clearly. Through her guidance, I was able for the first time to truly see and move through these deeper layers. This was not only about “seeing” — it was about completing: fully feeling, fully understanding, and truly transforming. I have worked with many teachers and methods, but I have never encountered transformation this comprehensive or this deep. If you simply want a lighter, more peaceful life, this work alone is worth it. And if you’re walking a deeper spiritual path — seeking true awakening and liberation — this kind of one-on-one work is almost essential. Because as awareness expands, if the human and emotional layers within remain unaddressed, it’s easy to fall back into old patterns. This work allows your inner foundation to come into true, stable alignment with a higher state of awareness.
— Alex Lin from Taiwan, Founder of Dreamtraveler Crystal Co., Ltd
