Passion to Awaken
The depth you cultivate within your being,
will determine the degree to which you can positively influence the world.
Some Buddhists go to the temple once a week, but do not seem very Buddhist the rest of the time. Some meditators mediate once a week, or even once a day, but do not seem very meditative the rest of the time. Well, at least some meditation is better than nothing. But while some meditation will only give relaxation, only a lot of meditation will give you liberation.
The pull of the world will always be stronger than the pull of soul; the world is just like the ego, it is the first to speak and loudest. Soul just waits, it waits for you to become quiet and to seek to know her. If you are not truly dedicated to awakening, then it is not likely to happen. You may have spontaneous moments of awakening in life, but they pass. Those moments are a touch of grace where reality beyond the dream, briefly opens its curtain to you. But, is it enough to awaken your longing to know yourself, is this glimpse of the other side enough for you to truly seek the realization of who you are?
Just because you are not sleeping, doesn’t mean you are awake. Just because you meditate, does not mean you are in touch with yourself. Just because you can quiet the mind for one hour a day, doesn’t mean you are not ruled by the mind for the rest of the day. Most people live in a subconscious trance, their self is completely identified with mind, personality and ego. They are occupied with worldly concerns from morning to night, never inquiring into the truth of who they are. You may know the world, but do you know yourself?
It takes a great passion and great continuous effort to truly awaken. The pull of unconsciousness, forgetfulness and ignorance in this dimension is too strong. The collective unconscious is dreaming too deep. Either the collective unconscious is absorbing you into its reality, or you are absorbing them into your awakened reality. Either you are integrating your spirituality into life, or life is integrating into your spirituality.
It takes a great continuous passion, and a great continuous effort to stay awake. If you are not dedicated, then surely you will regress. Even when awake, it is only a very small beginning of the opening into the inner realm. The inner realm of the soul is truly hidden. Only if the body and mind become very quiet, similar to the vibration of the soul’s realm, does that realm begin to open. When it does, you can enter but only as a visitor, an observer. You come and go constantly. You are still too identified with your human self, your mental self, your role and life in the world to really be ready to relocate.
But the greatest misunderstanding is that unless you become the truth of who you are and realize the truth of your deepest identity, you cannot actually connect to this world properly. Without a true connection to yourself, you will always be separate to this world. Only oneness with yourself can show you how to be in oneness with this whole world. The ego thinks itself to be clever, that it is doing everything the fast way, by addressing its worldly concerns right now. But without the crystal clarity and knowing wisdom of an awakened self, you are always making mistakes because you are not in your center. You actually waste time, energy and effort because instead of moving forward, you are learning how to correct the mistake of being off center.
For new meditators, sitting cross-legged and closing your eyes in the dark and listening to soft music is not meditation. It is only an external form. Meditation only begins when we are able to go beyond the mind. All meditation based on an activity, like watching the breath, or thoughts, body sensations, only strengthens the observer. It is important to know the observer, but after, you must progress into the true heart of mediation.
True meditation happens when you start coming in touch with your pure essence, when nothing is moving inside, and the truth of your purest I can emerge. This is your eternal self. It is totally pure and true. This is the softest, most intimate process. It requires care, like holding a newborn child, you hold yourself in the most gentle way and begin to know a whole new you. It is ancient, and it is forgotten, you need to yearn to know yourself, be yourself, remember yourself. Your ego needs to surrender to the will of the soul. The ego only helps you when it guides you back towards the discovery of who you truly are. Otherwise, the ego is leading you astray, taking you for amazing trips around the world, where you are only led farther and farther away from your true self. Meditation can either be a hobby, or a way of life. Meditation can either be a temporarily relaxation from the busyness of life, or it can be a pathway to holistic liberation and the realization of who you truly are.