情緒逃避與超越 – 第二部分
負面性往往源自於我們的意識深層，無論是在我們的無意識或潛意識中。某些形式的靜心視頭腦為衝動的、重複的、荒謬的，而且傾向於負面性。頭腦是如此，但它只是如此嗎？還是我們根本心理狀態更深的東西被揭露出來？反複出現的思想是我們的無意識試圖淨化更深的傷口或模式嗎？或將我們的注意力帶到誤解，或新的瞭解？
當我們試圖避免或放掉我們的負面情緒，而專注於正面性的，我們的潛意識會確實反抗這種拒絕。二元性的壓力在我們的系統中建立起來，潛意識開始創造重複的思想，試圖尋求我們的注意力。潛意識持續將負面性清除到我們的意識頭腦，等待處理和釋放。如果我們繼續忽視自己的負面模式，最終這就會滲漏到我們的人格、我們的語言、行為、生活決策和關係中…等。未化解的負面性創造出判斷、痛苦、不快樂和對生活持續的不滿。
一個人可以試圖忽略他的負面情緒和相關的思想，但這需要努力。他必須不斷的將注意力從他的真實感移開，去「試著」保持正面性。持續避免你的自我，是個使人疲勞的活動。壓抑的黑暗只會增長。希望建立足夠的光來強過我們的黑暗，就像是在垃圾場建設一座漂亮的房子。你可以留在你明亮的房子中，否認你房子外任何事物的存在。但如果你決定離開你的前門，你就會馬上遇到遍地垃圾。不會僅僅因為你的房子被整齊和完美的布置，一座花園就會突然出現在你的前院。
在情緒上未化解的事物會以無止境的負面思想波從潛意識出現。人類轉移注意力的能力是惡名昭彰的，將自己投入在慣常的迴避和逃避的形式中，如酒精、網路、手機、娛樂、工作…等。不斷的分心只會將我們的感受埋在我們的忙碌之下。甚至覺醒的人都可能利用他們提高的狀態，創造出已經超越他們情緒現實的錯覺。
一個人可能可以逃避自己的真實狀態一段時間，但我們未化解的負面狀態總是會回來。然而，如果我們的壓抑是成功的，我們負面性鋒利的邊緣就會變頓，緩慢沉重的沮喪就會出現。這不過是麻木不仁的狀態，麻木無感覺能量的厚厚雲層。事實上，壓抑會導致沮喪，這是害怕去感覺和面對你的內在。這不是面對我們的負面性，和淨化我們傷痛的理想替代方法。我們對於面對自己的黑暗所建立起的恐懼，往往比實際經歷這過程更糟。
僅是採取更高的觀點，保持正面性，或甚至隨著時間過去，情緒並不會因此化解。更高的觀點是分離的心智狀態，然而情緒傷痛需要從情緒體內滲透出，讓療癒發生。練習正面性往往是人為的，是表面的解決方法，沒有解決喪失自然正面性的原因。而且時間也不會療癒傷痛，是我們隨著時間成熟才會療癒傷痛。如果我們的情緒是非理性的，不是時間將它化解了，而是回到清晰中。
因此，我們的較高本性有力量可以取代我們的較低本性嗎？
如果你恨自己，但不斷重複說「我愛自己」，你會改變嗎？
如果你生氣，而告訴你就是放掉它，你可以充分的做到這一點嗎？並不是。
所有真的傷口都需要真正療癒過程的敏感和關心來淨化。一個人需要經歷出自內心深處的感覺過程，並真正面對傷痛將我們帶進的脆弱性、人性。只有在擁抱我們情緒真相的柔軟度和真實中，療癒才會發生。唯有透過真正的療癒，負面性才會化解。唯有透過愛的提升與瞭解，正面性才會回來。只有我們經歷過的傷痛，之後才可以蛻變為愛。我們拒絕和放掉的傷痛，會以看不見、未化解的能量卡在我們內在。我們無法無視孩子的傷痛，來療癒一個哭泣的孩子;我們必須抱起孩子，擁抱他，直到淚水流完。
在這個意義上，十分重要的是要學習超越與逃避的區別。真正的超越是毫不費力的，沒有必要將自己定位於現實正面的一面。如果情緒真的解決了，那我們就真的從它解脫了，不需要以任何方式來「處理」它。超越意味著情緒穿過我們，可以再次這樣，我們對此沒有問題。逃避是情緒總是在我們的尾巴，所以我們必須保持領先一步，不被情緒抓到。逃避只會產生恐懼。超越是定靜的，無論什麼風吹過。只有當療癒是真的時，才會有超越。
總之，除非傷痛化解了，放掉負面性是行不通的。試圖專注於我們的較高本性來取代較低本性也一樣不管用。除非傷痛被療癒了，無法真正的化解。而只有真正的療癒才會帶來超越。放掉、壓抑和調整都是逃避的形式。無意識的負面性會持續在我們失去「保持正面性」的目標的時刻，衝動性的湧出。關鍵是進入內在自由的真實狀態，我們就可以毫不費力的平靜，而不僅是持續努力透過光的隧道來凝視。面對我們脆弱的自己，和我們親愛的柔軟人性，從深處療癒我們的傷痛，這是無法避免的。
~ Avalon
Emotional Escape vs. Transcendence – Part 2
Negativity is often sourced in deep layers of our consciousness, either in our unconscious or subconscious. Some forms of meditation see the mind as impulsive, repetitive, nonsensical and prone to negativity. It is, but is it simply that, or is something deeper about our underlying psychology being revealed? Is recurring thought, an attempt by our subconscious to cleanse a deeper wound or pattern, or to bring our attention to a misunderstanding or new understanding?
When we attempt to renounce our negative emotions, and instead focus on the positive, our subconscious will actually rebel against this denial. The pressure of duality builds up in our system and the subconscious begins to create repetitive thought in an attempt to seek our attention. The subconscious continues to purge negativity into our conscious mind, awaiting processing and release. If we continue to ignore our patterns of negativity, eventually it leaks into our personality, language, behaviors, life decisions, relationships etc. Unresolved negativity creates judgment, bitterness, unhappiness and continuous dissatisfaction with life.
A person can try to ignore both his negative emotion and associated thoughts but it will take effort. He must continuously point attention away from his true feelings to “try” to stay positive. It is a tiresome activity to continuously avoid your self. Repressed darkness simply grows. Hoping to build enough light to outshine our darkness is like building a beautiful house on a garbage dump. You can stay in your house of light and deny anything outside your house exists. But, if you decide to leave your front door, you will immediately encounter garbage everywhere. A garden will not suddenly sprout in your front-yard just because your house has been neatly and perfectly arranged.
What is unresolved emotionally shows up as endless waves of negative thought from the subconscious. Humans are notorious for their ability to redirect attention, to absorb themselves in usual forms of evasion and escape like alcohol, internet, phones, entertainment, work etc. Constant distraction only buries our feelings under our busyness. Even awakened beings may use their heightened state of consciousness to create a false sense of having transcended their emotional reality.
One may be able to evade their true state for some time but our default state of unresolved negativity will always return. If our repression is successful however, the sharp edges of our negativity will become dull, and a slow heavy drone of depression will arise. This is none other than a desensitized state, a thick cloud of numb emotionless energy. Indeed, repression leads to depression, which is the fear to feel and face what is there. This is not an ideal alternative to simply facing our negativity and clearing our pain. The fear we build up around facing our darkness is often worse than the actual process of going through it.
Emotion does not fully dissolve just by taking on a higher perspective, holding onto optimism, or even dissolve with time. A higher perspective is a removed mental state, however emotional pain needs to be penetrated from inside the emotional body for healing to occur. The practice of optimism is often artificial, a surface solution which does not address the causes for the loss of natural optimism. And time does not heal wounds, it is the maturation of our being through time that does. If our emotions are irrational, it is not time that dissolves it, but the return of lucidity.
So, can our higher nature have the power to supplant our lower nature? If you hate yourself, but continue to repeat that you love yourself, will you change? If you are angry and told to just drop it, can you do it fully? Not really.
All genuine wounding requires the sensitivity and care of a true healing process to clear. One needs to go through a visceral feeling process and truly meet with the vulnerability, humility and humanness that pain brings us into. Only in the softness and realness of embracing the truth of our emotions, does healing occur. Only through genuine healing, can negativity dissolve. Only through the rising of love and understanding, can positivity return. Only pain that we pass through can later transmute into love. Pain that we deny and renounce stays stuck in us as unseen, unresolved energy. We cannot heal a crying child by ignoring its pain; we must pick the child up and hold it until the tears are done falling.
In this sense, it is fundamental to learn the difference between transcendence and escape. True transcendence is effortless, where there is no need to position oneself on the positive side of reality. If an emotion is truly resolved, then we are actually free from it. We lose any need to ‘deal’ with it in any way. Transcendence means that emotion has passed through us, can do so again, and we are fine with that. Escape is when emotion is always on our tail and so we have to stay one step ahead to not get caught. Escape only produces fear. Transcendence is stillness, no matter what wind is passing through. Transcendence results only when healing has been genuine.
To summarize, renouncing negativity cannot work until pain is dissolved. Trying to supplant our lower nature with a focus on our higher nature, doesn’t work either. Pain cannot dissolve until truly healed, and only true healing brings transcendence. Renunciation, repression, and refocus are all forms of escape where subconscious negativity continues to spew forth impulsively in moments we lose hold of our aim to “stay positive.” The key is to move into a true state of inner freedom, where our peace is effortless and not just an ongoing attempt to stare through a tunnel of light. Meeting our vulnerable selves, our beloved tender humanness, healing our pain from the depth of feeling, it cannot be avoided.
~ Avalon