基於自我的現實的五種模式

每個人都被賦予人性，在其內在有較高的本性和較低的本性。我們較高的本性屬於意識的領域。而我們較低的本性屬於無意識的領域。我們較高的本性是被覺知的光和我們更高的智慧所引導著的。而我們較低的本性是被自我和頭腦所控制著的。我們較低的本性是我們試圖隱藏或不願意承認的，然而它是我們人類組成的基本部分。超越較低的本性對於我們是可能的，但在我們學會接納它之前，是不可能的。當我們試圖抗拒、否定或壓抑我們的較低本性〜它就會變得更強，更擋不住。然後，我們就會被它所支配，這違背了我們超越它的意圖。我們的靈性工作是更仔細的看見我們較低本性的結構，而在這麼做時，我們就會清楚看見，當我們沒有覺知時，接管我們的現實的自我陰影面的奧秘。

簡單的說，我們有意識的覺知就是我們真正的自己，而我們的自我是我們虛假的或暫時的自我。自我只是一種頭腦的建構；這不過是思想錯誤的認為自己是真正自我。當頭腦活躍時，自我就會產生，將陰影投射在我們的真正自我上。然後這創造了我們是自我的幻覺。如果我們失去了覺知，而同時頭腦在思想中活躍，我們就會立即與自我和它所有的遊戲認同。在我們的缺乏覺知中，我們的自我就會接管我們的現實，我們所有的能量就會透過我們的較低本性來表達。以下說明了五種自我參與的模式。你可能經驗到以下提到的所有模式的每個痛苦，然而請注意你最常存在於的模式。

1.自我的〜衝突模式

你被頭腦的負面性所支配。
你是不存在的，總是迷失在思考中。
你被猶豫不決所困擾。
你被渴望和厭惡所約束。
你追求快樂和逃避痛苦。
你被恐懼和慾望支配著。
你害怕犯錯。
你與自己抗爭和鬥爭。
你的慾望是無止境的，貪得無厭的。
你總是試圖成為更多的。
你總是尋求獲得更多的。
你生活在恐懼、壓力和焦慮的狀態中。
你經常感到痛苦和受苦。
你沒有覺知，經常失去你的中心。
你迷失在外在的戲劇中。

2.自我的〜自私模式

你主要是自我中心和自私自利的。
生命是關於得到你想要的。
你要求你的需求得到滿足。
你對他人施加壓力，以滿足你的期望。
你先服務自己，才服務別人。
你幫助別人，以獲得幫助。
你盡你所能的拿取，如果可以的話，你會拿取更多。
你只給予必須的，如果可以的話，你會給予少一點。
你利用別人。
你在一切事物中尋求個人利益。
你經常爭論和抱怨。
你是控制和操控的。
你忽略義務和責任。
你違背諾言。
你缺乏感恩。

3.自我的〜重要性模式

你想被看作是獨特和特別的。
你想被看作是重要的。
你尋求聲望或名譽或財富。
你不能忍受成為普通的或一般的。
你渴望重要性。
你誇大、吹噓或說謊，來建立你的自我形象。
你想成為眾人矚目的焦點。
你試著讓人印象深刻。
你尋求讚美。
你抗拒批評。
你貶低他人，來讓自己感覺更好。
你支配他人，來感覺自己的強大。
你在你所做的事情中帶著自我驕傲。
你對於所有的努力都想得到表彰和獎勵。

4.自我的〜假裝模式

你假裝為你所不是的。
你假裝感覺到你所不是的。
你掩蓋你內心深處的想法。
你隱藏自己的最深感受。
你戴著面具來自我保護。
你說謊，以得到你想要的東西。
你掩飾自己的錯誤。
你找藉口和逃避責任。
你改變或美化事實。
你有隱藏的議程。
你的公眾形象與你私下的自我是不同的。
你依據可以從人們得到什麼，以不同的方式待人。
你虐待或忽視那些你無法從中得到好處的人。
人們覺得不知道你是誰。

5.自我的〜關係模式

你需要是正確的，而別人是錯的。
你支配或抗拒被支配。
當你受到傷害時，你收回愛。
你表現憤怒來掩蓋自己的痛苦。
你很容易覺得受到威脅。
當你沒有被傾聽時，你批評對方。
當你感到無助時，你變得暴力。
你不是在攻擊的模式，就是在防衛的模式。
你比較、競爭，很容易嫉妒。
你想要愛，但害怕受到傷害。
你是情緒性的反應，而不是回應。
你想要報復或懲罰。
你想要親密，但害怕請求。
你是被動性的侵略性。

這些都是自我現實的五種模式。當自我在世界上表達自己時，它可以採取這些模式中的任何一個，並從這些痛苦之一來行動。當我們誠實的探詢自己，我們會看到自己已經活出大部分或所有的這些現實，而且很可能這些現實仍然是你在世界上的主要表達，甚至是在現在。如果是的話，那就意味著你生活在一個以自我為中心的現實，被你的較低本性所約束著。

當然，接下來的問題是：你希望超越這個較低的振動性現實嗎？有些人想要，但有趣的是，有的人不想要。當自我以這樣的方式行事時，它不是沒有原因或完善計劃的。如果自我持續的掌管，它就會持續爭取它所著迷的，和所有短視的突發奇想；它持續以它的意志控制、支配和操控；在朝向完全以自我為中心的滿足的爭鬥中，它持續擊倒一切，而它可能只是讓你得到它所承諾的。如果你想真正的放掉自我，你就放掉了一切。或者至少，你放掉自我得到黃金的方法。如果你超越自我的生活，你就會學到在世界上完全不同的運作方式，一種由敏感、愛和你心的智慧所主導的方式。你就學會了，對於宇宙指引、神聖恩典，以及與他人連結的方式，和與更高途徑和神聖秩序相一致的這個世界，對這一切的敞開。

我們必須覺醒，了解到這些不同的自我模式，實際上是不同的痛苦模式。我們已經對自己的情況變得麻木，而沒有意識到這樣的生活狀態所導致我們的痛苦。對於一些人而言，他們自我的現實是如此極端，他們在持續的痛苦中，或甚至在危機的模式中〜這其實是好事，因為這可能是剛好足夠的痛苦，來啟發他們覺醒，走在更高的道路上。對於其他的人而言，對於自我現實的痛苦還在沈睡的人而言，我們只能追求覺醒的胡蘿蔔、自由的至喜，並告訴你，比起任何自我所能為你收集的碎屑的山，覺醒是遠超越滿足感的至高狀態和全面性形式的。

~Avalon

The Five Modes of Ego-Based Reality

Every person is endowed with a human nature, within which is a higher nature and a lower nature. Our higher nature belongs to the realm of consciousness. Our lower nature belongs to the realm of unconsciousness. Our higher nature is guided by the light of awareness and our higher intelligence. Our lower nature is controlled by the ego and mind. Our lower nature is this in us that we try to hide, or prefer not to admit to, and yet it is a fundamental part of our human makeup. It is possible for us to rise above our lower nature, however, not before we learn to embrace it. When we attempt to resist, deny or repress our lower nature ~ it becomes even stronger and more irrepressible. We then become ruled by it, contrary to our intent to rise above it. Our spiritual work is to take a closer look at the structure of our lower nature, and in doing so, we unravel the mystery of this shadow that takes over our reality in our unawareness.

Simply put, our conscious awareness is our real self, our ego is our false or transitory self. The ego is only a construct of the mind; it is only a thought that falsely believes itself to be the real self. When the mind is active, the ego arises, casting a shadow over our real self; this then creates the illusion that we are the ego. If we lose our awareness, while the mind is active in thought, then we immediately get identified with the ego and all its games. In our unawareness, our ego then takes over our reality and all our energy is expressed through our lower nature. Below is illustrated, the five modes the ego engages in. You have likely experienced every affliction of every mode named below, however note the modes you dwell in most often.

1. The Ego’s ~ Conflict Mode
You are ruled by the negativity of the mind.
You are not present, always lost in thinking.
You are plagued by indecision.
You fear making mistakes.
You are bound to craving and adversion.
You seek pleasure and escape pain.
You are dominated by fear and lust.
You fight and struggle with yourself.
Your desires are endless and insatiable.
You are always trying to become something more.
You are always seek to acquire something more.
You live in a state of fear, stress, and anxiety.
You often experience pain and suffering.
You are unaware and often lose your center.
You get lost in outer drama.

2. The Ego’s ~ Selfish Mode
You are primarily self-centered and self-serving.
Life is about getting what you want.
You pressure others to fulfill your expectations.
You serve yourself before you serve others.
You help others in order to get help.
You take as much as you can get, and more if you can.
You give only what is required, and less if you can.
You look for the personal benefit in everything.
You are controlling and manipulative.
You neglect duty and responsibility.
You demand your needs get met.
You take advantage of others.
You often argue and complain.
You break promises.
You lack gratitude.

3. The Ego’s ~ Significance Mode
You crave for significance.
You want to be seen as unique and special.

You want to be regarded as important.
You seek for fame or name or riches.
You cannot stand being ordinary or normal.
You wish to be the center of attention.
You exaggerate, boast or lie to build up your self-image.
You try to impress others.
You seek for compliments.
You resist criticism.
You put others down to feel better about yourself.
You dominate others to feel empowered.
You carry ego-pride in what you do.
You want recognition and reward for all your efforts.

4. The Ego’s ~ Pretending Mode

You pretend to be what you are not.
You pretend to feel what you don’t.
You cover up your innermost thoughts.
You hide your deepest feelings.
You wear masks to self-protect.
You tell lies to get what you want.
You make excuses and evade responsibility.
You change or embellish facts.
You cover up your mistakes.
You have hidden agendas.
Your public self is different then your private self.
You treat people differently according to what you can get out of them.
You mistreat or neglect those you cannot benefit from.
People feel they don’t know you.

5. The Ego’s ~ Relationship Mode
You need to be right and make others wrong.
You dominate or resist domination.
You withdraw love when you get hurt.
You show anger to mask your pain.
You feel easily threatened.
You criticize the other when you are not heard.
You are violent when you feel helpless.
You are either in attack or defense mode.
You want either revenge or retribution.
You compare, compete and are easily jealous.
You want intimacy, but are afraid of asking.
You want love, but are afraid of getting hurt.
You are emotionally reactive not responsive.
You are passive aggressive.

These are the five modes of the egoic reality. When the ego is expressing itself in the world, it can take on any one of these modes, and act out any one of those afflictions. When we inquire honestly into ourselves, we see we have lived out most or all of these realities, and likely these realities continue to be your dominant expression in the world, even right now. If so, it means you live in an ego-centered reality and are bound by your lower nature.

Naturally, the next question is: do you wish to transcend this lower vibrational reality? Some people do, but interestingly, some people don’t. The ego is not without reason or a sound plan when it acts in such ways. If the ego continues to be in charge, then it continues to strive after all its obsessions, and all its short sighted whims; it continues to control, dominate and manipulate everything to its will; it continues to knock everything over in its battle towards total self-centered satisfaction, and it may just get you all that it is promising to. If you wish to truly give up the ego, you give that all up. Or at least, you will give up the ego’s method of getting to the gold. If you live beyond the ego, then you learn an entirely different way of operating in the world, one that is led by the sensitivity, love and the intelligence of your heart. You learn to open to universal guidance, divine grace and a way of relating to others and this world in a way that is aligned with a higher path and divine order.

We must wake up and realize that these different modes of the ego, are actually different modes of suffering. We have become numb to our condition, and do not realize the pain such a state of living is causing us. For some, their egoic reality is so extreme, they are in constant suffering or even crisis mode ~ which is good actually, because that may be just enough pain to inspire them to awaken and walk a higher path. For others, who are still sleeping to the pain of egoic reality, we can only dangle the carrot of an awakening, the bliss of freedom, and tell you that awakening is a far more supreme state and holistic form of fulfillment, compared to any mountain of crumbs the ego could ever gather for you.

~Avalon