我們的集體人格

在靈性道路上有某些常見的誤解。有一個這樣的思想：普遍的信念是，我們都是特殊、獨特，與眾不同的。環顧四周，它似乎如此，在某種意義上，這是真的〜從表面上看，我們的表現，我們的行為，我們的語言，我們的生活方式，給了我們不同的外觀，但在我們自己，在內心深處，我們有這麼不同嗎？

我們相信我們的獨特性使我們與眾不同，我們的獨特氣質屬於我們。我們無意識的擁有自己的人格特質。我們相信自己的特點是獨一無二的。但是，是這樣嗎？從更高的角度來看，我們的特質其實都不是個人的。它們是屬於人類的，它們是我們集體人格的特徵。這意味著什麼？這意味著我們都屬於集體的意識，有曾經存在的每個人的特質，而從這口井中，我們每個人取得自己的特質。這取決於我們對於自己有多覺知，取決於我們是在自己的較低本質或更高本質中振動，取決於我們從這集體人類特質的井中取得什麼。

從人類的初始，每個人都一直在使用這​​口井，我們大多數人，在我們生命的初期，在我們無憂無慮、無約束的青春期或年幼的時候，從這口井中取得最多，如果不是這口井的所有區域的話。透過穿越邊界和被推回，透過受到傷害，透過被制約，透過經驗，透過成長和學習，我們發現自己較高本質的行動，幫助我們在這個世界上與他人和諧相處。然而，我們在永久的衝突狀態中，因為我們的不覺知使我們的自我和頭腦支配著我們。在這種狀態下，我們很容易墮入自己的較低本質。我們知道自己較低本質的傷痛，我們與自己的陰影鬥爭，我們試圖壓抑自己內在陰暗和醜陋的一面，但我們發現，我們的抗拒實際上強化了我們的較低本質。我們很多時候都在與自己的衝突中;我們甚至有時覺得與自己在戰爭中。當人類沒有看見和接納自己衝突的方面時，這是人類的困境。

你來自於神的光。你確實是永恆、無限、神聖的。但是來到這裡，你被賦予了人性，在它的特質波譜中是動態和廣泛的。這是一個奇妙的組成，人類的組成，其中許多部分充滿了光，但也有許多部分充滿了陰影。我們對於世界的內在經驗是複雜、多層次的。我們是多維的，我們也有不同的性格、情緒、思想、模式和現實，這一切都同時存在於我們的內在。因為在我們內在存在的明顯二元性，我們經常在與自己的衝突中。我們越多的否認自己的這種二元性本質，我們就越在它的手中受苦，一直在與自己分裂的狀態中。下面是一些我們都攜帶著的二元性現實：

你在給予，但你也是自私的。你在愛，但你也厭惡。你是大方的，但你也是小氣的。你是寬恕的，但你也是結怨的。你祝賀別人，但你也是嫉妒的。你給予關注，但你也是忽視的。你是感激的，但你也把一切視為理所當然。你是謙卑的，但你也是傲慢的。你在照顧別人，但你也是利己的。你是美麗的，但你也是醜陋的。你是誠實的，但你也是欺騙的。你可以是透明的，但你也戴著面具。你是坦率的，但你也是操控的。你經驗到自由，但你也是控制的。你是喜悅的，但你也是憤怒的。你懷抱希望，但你也是擔心的。你是友善的，但你也是卑鄙的。你是驕傲的，但你也是羞恥的。你是公正的，但你也是愧疚的。這些是一些你內在的衝突。但你也有外在的衝突：你表示感激，但你內心在抱怨。你表示尊重，但不敢說出你的想法。當你難過時，你假裝快樂;當你受傷時，你假裝很好。你容忍情況和人們，但不滿意。你微笑，但隱藏自己的不滿情緒。你表現的很有愛，但腦海中有不好的想法。

誰沒有在自己內在經驗到所有這些特質？誰沒有在自己內在經驗到所有這些感覺？沒有人需要向你解釋這些感覺或經驗是怎麼樣的，因為你之前已經嚐到它們，活過它們，感受過它們了。這些經驗不是你知道的每個人都有的嗎？我們的面具很厚;很少人會揭露自己內在所發生的，但你能不感覺到嗎？如果不能的話，至少你可以看進自己的內在，看見是否這較高和較低的現實都在你的內在。當然，我們可以承認好的東西。但我們往往會否認，隱藏或不承認不好的東西。也許你以前看過這些內容，並在鄙視中，試圖迅速改變你的樣子。也許你試過從較高層面來生活，並試圖降低你較低的傾向。也許你成功了，但也許同樣的現實會持續抬頭，隨著每個否定的動作而增強。

對於那些可以承認自己有所有這些特質的人，他們是自由的。他們從抗拒、拒絕或反對他們所是的樣子的需求中解脫。他們從衝突和對抗中走出來了，這是來自於拒絕承認這些內在的真實。生命不斷的向你表明：「你是一切，沒有什麼不是你。」每次你嘗試將自己從整體劃分，說：「我不是這樣，我不是那樣。」〜生命有責任將你喚醒，告訴你不是那樣的。生命有將你帶回到合一狀態的議程，因此會給予你它的第一個教導，對於你自我的本質。生命會用無數的方式讓你面對，給予你經驗讓你發現，你對於他人的批判，你對於他人的抗拒，你對於他人的拒絕，你所厭惡的，對於他人所不能接受的，都是你對於自己所無法面對、承認和接納的。你對於他人的外在衝突，不過是一直以來與你自己的衝突。沒有什麼不是你的。不是去接納他人，然後你就會接納自己；就是你接納自己，然後就會接納他人。我們在表現上是獨一無二的，但我們的人性是相同的。真正使我們與眾不同的，是我們接納自己較低本質的能力，然後我們就會自然從我們的最高自我來生活。

~Avalon

Our Collective Human Personality

There are certain common misunderstandings on the path. Here is one such line of thought: the common belief is that we are all special, individual and unique. Looking around it seems so, and it in a certain way it is true ~ on the surface, our expressions, our behaviors, our language, our ways, give the appearance that we are all different, but within ourselves, deep down, are we so different?

We believe our uniqueness sets us apart, that our distinct qualities belong to us. We possess our personality traits unconsciously. We believe our traits are unique to who we are. But, is it so? From a higher perspective, our qualities are actually all impersonal. They belong to the human race, they characterize our collective human personality. What does that mean? It means that we all belong to a collective consciousness that holds every human trait that ever was, and it is from this well that we each derive our individual qualities. Depending on how aware we are, depending on whether we are vibrating in our lower nature or higher nature, depends on which qualities we draw from in this collective well of human attributes.

Since the beginning of humanity, each person has always had access to this well, and most of us early on in our lives, in our carefree uncensored adolescent or youthful forms have drawn from most, if not all areas of this well. Through crossing boundaries and getting pushed back, through getting hurt, through getting conditioned, through experience, through growth and learning, we have discovered that acting from our higher natures helps us to live in harmony with others in this world. However, we are in a perpetual state of conflict, because our unawareness causes our ego and mind to dominate us. In such a state, we fall prey to our lower natures easily. We know the pain of our lower natures, we struggle against our shadows, we try to repress what is dark and ugly inside us, and yet we find, our resistance actually strengthens our lower nature. We are in conflict much of the time within our own selves; even we feel at war with ourselves sometimes. This is the plight of the human when the human fails to see and accept its conflicting aspects.

You come from the light of God. You are eternal, infinite and divine indeed. But coming here, you are endowed with a human nature of which is dynamic and expansive in its spectrum of qualities. It is a curious make-up, the human makeup, and much of it is filled with light, but much of it is also filled with shadows. Our inner experience of the world is complex and multi-layered. We are multi-dimensional and we also have a matrix of differing personalities, emotions, thoughts, patterns and realities all co- existing in us at the same time. We are often in conflict with ourselves because of the obvious duality that exists within ourselves. The more we deny this dual nature of ours, the more we suffer at the hands of it, always in a state divided from our own selves. Here are some of the dualistic realities we all carry:

You are giving, but you are also selfish. You are loving, but you are also loathing. You are gracious, but you are also petty. You are sensitive, but you are also insensitive. You are forgiving, but you also hold your grudges. You congratulate others, but you are also jealous. You are attention giving, but you are also neglectful. You are grateful, but you also take things for granted. You are humble, but you are also arrogant. You are caring of others, but you are also self-serving. You are beautiful, but you are also ugly. You are honest, but you also lie. You can be transparent, but you wear masks. You are straightforward, but you are also manipulative. You experience freedom, but you also control. You are joyful, but you are also angry. You are hopeful, but you are fearful. You are kind, but you are also mean. You are proud, but you also hold shame. You are righteous, but you are also guilty. These are some of your inner conflicts. You also have outer conflicts: You show gratitude, but inside you complain. You show respect, but are afraid to speak your thoughts. You pretend to be happy when you are sad; fine when you are hurt. You tolerate situations and people but are dissatisfied. You smile but hide your resentments. You act loving, but bad thoughts cross your mind.

Who has not experienced all these traits inside their own selves? Who has not experienced all these feelings inside their own selves? No one needs to explain to you what any one of these feelings or experiences are like, because you have tasted them, lived them, felt them all before. Is this experience not shared by everyone you know? Our masks are thick; few let on what is going on underneath, but can you not sense it? If not, at least you can look within yourself and see if both this higher and lower reality exist in you. Of course, we can admit the good stuff. But we tend to deny, hide or refrain from admitting the bad stuff. Perhaps you have seen these contents before, and in disdain tried to rapidly change what you were. Perhaps you tried to come from a higher place, and tried to push down your lower tendencies. Perhaps you succeeded, but perhaps the same reality continued to rear its head only to grow stronger with each act of denial.

For those that can admit they hold all those qualities, they are free. They are free from needing to resist, deny or fight against what they are. They are free from the conflicts and confrontations that arise out of the refusal to admit these inner truths. Life is ever trying to show you that: you are the all, and that there is nothing that is not you. Each time you try to divide yourself from the whole, by saying, “I am not this, I am not that” ~ life has a duty to wake you up and show you otherwise. Life holds the agenda of bringing you back into a state of oneness, and would therefore deliver its first teachings to you, about the nature of your very self. Life would use a myriad of ways to confront you with experiences whereby you would discover, that what you judge in the other, what you resist in the other, what you reject in the other, what you loathe and cannot accept in the other, is only all that you cannot face, admit and embrace in yourself. Your outer conflicts with others are only ever conflicts with your own self. There is nothing that is not you. Either embrace others to embrace self, or embrace self and thereby embrace others. As unique as we are on the surface, our human nature is the same. The only thing that really sets us apart is our ability to hold our lower nature in such embrace, that we naturally come from our highest self.

~Avalon